Wishing away time

Sitting here tonight bored outta my mind... why??? Cuz my damn shows are not on hahaha sad I know but so true :)

So when I am bored I do a lot of thinking. It is funny that a person can think so much. I can pretty much think of anything but lately all that has been on my mind is how much I miss my husband. I miss everything about him. I miss the cuddles, the kisses, the hugs but mostly I just miss the company. It is nice to be on my own again. I have said it a lot but I have totally lost my Independence since Matt and I got together. He is my best friend and we do everything together but it is nice to know that I can still take care of myself. I can shovel the walk way, get a big ass jug of water (so freaking heavy) and take out the garbage :) It is funny it seems like he has been gone forever but I find the days go by quick, the nights go on forever. I was never use to him being home during the day. He was almost always home at night. I miss his arms around me, I miss him holding my face in his hands, I miss him saying I love you. I would do almost anything for a hug. Everyone told me that it gets easier as the time goes on some days it is ok but then I have nights like tonight.

I have heard it before that it takes a strong woman to be an Army Wife and I know I can do it. Our love is strong... this is the longest we have EVER been apart.

I always try to end on a positive note so I have done the treadmill everyday since Matt has been away. Tomorrow I increase to 50 minutes a day!! Yea me and I am down 10pounds :) I physically feel the best I have in years.

:) :) :) :) :) :)