Happy, Nervous, and Scared

Happy... Cuz my hubby will be home really really soon. I miss him so much and I cannot wait to be in his arms again.

Nervous... I just got off the phone with hubby and he told me his approx date he will be leaving for Afghan. It is a lot sooner then I expected.

Scared... He is going to war WHO wouldn't be :(

The Army Wife’s Prayer (found this online)

Dear Lord,

Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he’s away. And Lord, when he’s in a foreign land, keep him safe in your loving hand. And Lord, when duty is in the field, please protect him and be his shield. And Lord, when deployment is so long, please stay with me and keep me strong.

Amen.

Trying to be strong,

Lesley

Love day

Well another Valentines day is over. I say see you next year cuz I am one day closer to my husband coming home :)

Saturday night some girls and I went out for supper to celebrate a friends birthday. We had a great time. We had a wonderful supper and a lot of laughs. It was just what the doctor ordered. After this wonderful evening I went home and to bed. I woke up at around 3 and I was never so sick in my life. I don't know if it was a stomach flu or if it was the grease I ate at the restaurant. I am so happy I am feeling better now :)

Valentines day was not a total waste I got to talk to my sexy hubby and he had roses delivered to me. It was so sweet. I love my roses a lot they smell so good.

So not many more days to count down now... Just over a week and I cannot wait to be in my husbands arms. I am just going to melt and never let him go again :)

Just a little longer

As I sit here tonight all I can think about is my husband and how much I miss him. Sunday is Valentines Day and it makes me sad to think that I will be spending it alone. But in the same breath I don't need a day to show my husband how much I love him and I don't need him to have a day to show me how much he loves me. I know every day that he loves me! Even though we are apart now I can still feel his love for me. I really do feel lucky! Not many are as lucky as I am to find real true love. I miss my husband so much it hurts but soon we will be together and when we are together it will be perfect because I will be home in my husbands arms!!

Sigh

I have been doing a lot of thinking the last 2 days. It all started with a phone call. I was calling my Mother to find out how she cooked meat balls and it goes like this:

Brother in Law picks up the phone (BIL): Hello
Me: Hello, how are you
BIL: Good just watching the Superbowl
Me: Oh how nice... Is my Mother there?
BIL: Just a sec and I will check (puts the phone down) screams!!!! for my sister to pick up the phone. I guess she didnt get the phone in time so he continues to say GOD your stupid f*cking family is so stupid they cant even pick up a phone!!
Me: Silent (I am so pissed off that I cant think of anything to say except a nervous giggle)

This is not the first time he has acted like this and anytime I mention it he says he is just joking and why cant I take a joke. I dont know about you but this doesnt sound like a joke to me when he was as serious as a heart attach. There was NO laughing on his part there was no lightness in his voice just harshness. I have always felt that he feels that out family is beneith his and it is so far from the truth. I feel that my sister feels this way too sometimes. There was talk of them coming up here to visit for March break (when we were home at Christmas). Matt was so excited ... I told him not to get his hopes up because they never follow through or they find bigger and better plans. Now they are going to FL again with my brother in laws family OF COURSE!!! I know this might sounds really childish but I cant help the way I feel. I havent slept since saturday night because all I can think about is this and the fact that I miss my husband so much it hurts.

Sometimes I am so glad I dont live anywhere near my family anymore but then I think that is probably the reason they forget about me. They dont even call me. I always have to call them. When I need someone do you think I am going to pick up the phone and call NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I just feel so left out.

Anyways leave a comment on your opinion please... I need some major advice!!!

Doing good

So under 3 weeks to go and my hubby comes home. I am so excited and I find myself dreaming of his return. 7 weeks is way too long for a persons husband to be away.

Yesterday I went to the gym with a friend of mine. It was my first time at the gym here on base. I was impressed with the type of equipment they had. So I did a little of 30 minutes on the treadmill and my friend showed me around the restance training equipment. It was a great workout and my arms and legs were a little sore last night. LAST night was nothing today they hurt worse but its the good kind of hurt. After doing my 60 minutes on the treadmill today I can say that I am tired. I have cominited to every other day at the gym!! I am so happy and proud to say I have lost 15 pounds in 4 week!!! YEA me :)

Thats it thats all.... Have an awesome week everyone ;)