Merry Christmas

Hard to believe that it is "that time of year again"! Matt and I decided to stay at home this year and spend our first Christmas with just him and I. Then Thursday we decided to go back home to NB. I am so excited!!! My family knows except my nieces and nephew. I cannot wait to see the look on their little faces when I show up. They have been really blue that their Auntie isn't going to be home for the holidays. In fact my whole family was a little blue but now I think everyone is in the Christmas spirit!!!!

That is about all that's new in my life so with that... Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!

It has been forever

Well it has been a long time since I posted so today seems the perfect day. It is a rainy day here in Petawawa. Doing laundry (seems fitting for such an inside day). Last night I went for my orientation at the PMFRC. It was good... there was just 3 of us but I am excited to start my volunteering. Something to get me out of the house and working with my community.

Hubby can home yesterday and he got DAG'D (for you non military people this means that he got all his tan uniforms, boots and stuff he needs for his tour). Seeing those tan boxes with all the tan uniforms makes it all so real. But I was really proud of myself. Hubby went through and showed me what he got and I didn't cry YEA lol. I did feel a but overwhelmed and flooded with emotion but I carried on with getting supper ready. It is so hard to believe the end of November is nearing and soon Christmas will be upon us.

Speaking of Christmas... Who is ready??? I have to get a few more things for family and send them by the end of next week (just to insure they all get their presents). Still have to get a few more thing for my husband. We decided to stay here in Petawawa this Christmas. My family would love to have us home but hubby wants to stay here. He is going to be away for training after Christmas for a few months so he wants us to spend the time together... Awwwww he loves me I know. I have so much to be thankful for this Christmas. Matt wants me to wait until he is on his Christmas leave to put up the decorations. He wants us to do it together. I am looking forward to that. I think we are going to try our hand at making truffles should be interesting hahaha.

I have met to awesome new people here in this small town and I must say it is so nice having people stop in to have some coffee and talk. I am also thankful for them!!!

Well not much new but I always have something to say hahahaha... So that's it for now. Talk to you soon :)

So Blessed!!

I went to the PMFRC today to pick up my criminal record check so I can start volunteering. I am so excited about this. Something to get me out of the house and become a real part of my community. I have an orientation meeting on the evening of the 24th. Once the Military police get my record check back I can start volunteering right away. I think I am going to be working with the deployment center. This makes me really happy as my hubby will be deploying early 2010. Something to look forward to and get out of the house and meet new people. Just what the doctor had in order.

I was talking to my Mom today and she got my package. It contained birthday presents for my Mom and my niece Breanna. It also contained a little something for my oldest niece Savanah. They opened their gifts while I was on the phone. I love hearing my little girls (not so little anymore 7 and 10) scream with excitement. I guess their gifts was a big hit. I also sent a little package for my handsome nephew Evan and he got his package on Friday. He was so excited to get his hockey cards. I think I have to be the most blessed Aunt in the whole entire world. I think God every day for making me these kids Aunt. There is nothing like having a bad day and calling my nieces or nephew to cheer me up. All it takes is hearing their voice and the whole world is a better place. It is hard being away from them. I remember thinking OMG they are so going to forget about me. I could be up here for 5 years and miss so much of their lives. I might not be there in person but they know I am only a phone call away. I feel so good knowing that these kids know they can call me and tell me anything. See I am blessed. I not only have the best nieces and nephew but I also have the best of the following:

Mother
Sisters
Friends
And of course Husband!!!!

I love all these people more then they could ever know. When someone moved away life goes on but it is good to know that the people that matter most do not forget about you.

Snow snow... Puts me in the Christmas mood :)

So here is how my day started... Ring Ring Hello... Sweetie look out the window its snowing Gotta go Love you. This was at 730 this morning. I was so happy to hear from my wonderful husband. Looking outside at the snow made me want to sing a Christmas tune.

I got up to get ready for my day. I went to pick up my husband's pants from the seamstress and headed out to Walmart. For Christmas this year my sisters and I and our husbands decided to draw names. I got my brother in law Peter and Matt got my sister Julie. I decided that I was going to make my brother in law a scrapbook of our trip this summer when they came up to visit and we went to see the falls and Marineland. I came back home and got right into it. I have never made a scrapbook before and I am NO Martha lol. But I have done 4 pages and I must say I am pretty impressed. I think I have found myself a new hobby. So now I have 2 presents down and a lot more to go LOL... no I have 3 presents down cuz I have my hubby done but I cant post on here just in case he is snooping :) Love you HUBBY!!!

I have no title :)

It is so hard to believe that Halloween is over and it is the 2nd of November. Halloween was fun we got way too much candy and not enough kids to hand it out to. I think we only had around 40 or 45. I told Matt that he has to take the rest with him to work cuz I dont want to end up eating the rest of it. I was cleaning this afternoon and there it was in the computer room. He must of forgotten it this morning. When he comes home again I will totally be sending it with him that is if I havent eaten it all :)

Matt told me Friday night that he wont be home next weekend... That makes me sad. But I guess I just have to get use to it. Petawawa really isnt that bad. I really dont mind it here I just wish I had more friends. We went to a friends house Halloween night to play some Wii and I met a new girl. She moved to Pet in June too and she was asking me how I liked it here. I told her that I didnt mind it that I just wished that I knew more people. She said that she felt the same way. We laughed and said meeting new friends is like dating. It is so funny cuz it is totally true.

Today I got Mom and Breanna's birthday presents all wrapped and ready to mail. As I was wrapping them I was crying my eyes out becasue this is the first birthday I will miss. Mom was lucky enough to have her grandaughter born on her birthday. I remember the day my precious neice was born, the joy we all felt. It is so amazing looking into the face of a newborn. I looked at her and cried. Mom was so proud and what a birthday present.

Another note 53 days until Christmas.......

What is wrong with me???

M and I have been wanting to have a baby for awhile now. I was on the depo shot for a few years and went off of it over a year ago. I have not been able to get pregnant. I want a baby so bad and I worry that for some reason I am not going to be able to get pregnant. My doctor back home was about to refer me to a OB but then we got posted here to Petawawa. When we found out we were being posted and that M would be going on tour in 2010 we thought maybe we should wait until after he comes back. Then I got thinking... If we wait there will never be a right time. Come on we are dealing with the Military. If we wait until next year then something else will come up and then something else. So we talked about it. M said will in Feb of 2011 we are planning a trip to Cuba I am sure you don't want to be preggo for that... I don't wanna go to Cuba I want a baby. We talked about the pros and cons and there are more pros so we decided that once I get my Ontario Health card in the mail I would get referred to an OB here in Pet. It all hit me today because well I know I'm not preggo this month (if you know what I mean LOL). I just hate it that I dread this time of the month because every month I hope and pray and it just doesn't happen. I am 27 and only getting older. My doctor in NB told me that if I am going to have kids I should do it before I am 30 because of a blood condition that runs in my family. My hubby has a daughter who lives out west. He knows what it is like to be a Daddy....... When am I going to get a chance to be a Mommy?????

I think these feelings are made worse by the fact that my hubby is barley home with all the work up training. Also found out this morning that hubby will probably have to go to CA the first of December and will be home a few days before Christmas then have to go again in January for 3 weeks. So much on my mind........ I know I am not the only one going through all this but sometimes I just feel so alone!!!!

Tomorrow will be better :)

Home for the weekend

Well hubby came home last night for the weekend. I am so happy to have him around. He was saying how fast the week went by and I was thinking OK I wish I could say the same lol He told me that they have been advised that the tour will probably be extended for 9 months!!!! 9 months GOD I thought 6 was long enough........................................ Oh well I will put that in the back of my mind to worry about another day. Today I just want to be here with my husband and enjoy the time we do have!!!

Can I really do this???

As I sit here tonight I cannot help wondering... How the hell am I going to get through this next year????? I haven't seen Hubby in 2 nights now. That's not a lot but it is to me. I knew last night he was away but he was suppose to be home tonight. I hate it that I have no way to contact him. I haven't heard from him since yesterday. I don't know if he is coming home tonight or not. I guess when he does go overseas I will know that he wont be home but that doesn't give me much comfort.

I think I need a job... then I wont have so much time to think about all this stuff.

Long time

Wow... It sure has been a long time since I have written here. A lot has gone on the past few weeks. Hubby is working hard with his training. He is home some nights and not others. Tonight is one of those your on your own kinda nights. I miss him so much when he cannot come home. I am so sick so that makes me miss him even more. When I am sick I am a big wimp and he always knows how to make me feel better. Oh well chicken soup for one tonight :(

Hubby and I went home to NB for Thanksgiving. It was a total surprise for my family. It was so good to see them all. I have missed them so much. Mom was so happy she cried. I had so much to be Thankful for this year. My 6 year old niece didn't want us to leave so she asked if Matt could call his boss and tell him he has the Swine Flu so we could stay another night. I laughed so hard. You never know what Breanna is going to say. I love going home but it is so hard on the kids when its time to go, not to mention how hard it is for me to say good bye to them. Every time I see them I swear they have grown a foot!!!!!!

Well that's all for now I will write more when I am feeling better. For now I am going for a nap :)

Another day

Oh man these days are so long. It is only 2:38PM and I have been watching the clock since 11 this morning. I am just waiting for my hubby to come home from work. These days are so long and so boring. All I do is watch TV, vacuum, clean, and play games online. I really really really miss my family and friends. It is so hard being here, I have one friend here and she works and has a life so cannot be with me in my loneliest times (the day). I dont want to talk on the phone anymore, I just want someone to ring my door bell and say hey lets hang out. I know it doesnt happen that way I have to get out and meet new people but how does someone meet new people in a new place? I am really worried becasue after my husband goes to Afghan I will have nobody. I am worried about going home becasue who is going to look after the PMQ. Who is going to get my mail and mow the lawn???? I have no idea!!!

Rainy Days!!

Today is a rainy dark day here in Petawawa. Hubby was out in the field last night and I am counting down the hours for him to come home tonight. I hate it when he is away. I have the worse night sleep. I just seem to wake up every hour. I guess I better get use to it.

I was on Facebook earlier today and see this note. It really caught my attention and wanted to share with everyone:

Give me the greatness of heart to see the difference between duty and his love for me. Give me understanding that I may know, when duty calls him he must go. Give me a task to do each day, to fill the time when he's away!

Gotta love food for thought!

Up and Running

Wow my first blog posting. How exciting :) I have thought about writting in a blog since I found out my husband would be deploying in early 2010. We are just starting to get into the work up training and the long days. One night last week he didnt get home until 11.

Lets start from the beginning... We met back in 2006 and fell in love right away. We were engaged in November of 2007 and married in August of 2008. We found out in February that we were being posted from Oromocto to Petawawa. I must say that I was excited and nervous about the posting. This has been the hardest summer of my life. When I left my Mother, sisters, niece's and nephew behind I felt as though my heart was empty. But I knew I was doing the right thing for my husband. I was excited but broken hearted at the same time. Leaving my nephew and niece's was hardest thing I have ever had to do. Those kids are like my own. I have always been there for them and when they needed to escape from their parents they called on me. We would hang out and do fun things. After the first month of my life in Petawawa things started to feel right.

Now we have been here for almost 3 months. I find the days long because lets face it there is only so much cooking and cleaning a girl can do :) There isn't much here in the form of work so for now my career is my husband :)

That's all for now!

Ps I have been smoke free now for 2 weeks :)